i was up at 4 again today. its been a long time since i cried just from watching a person's way of living and im not even talking about a poor, sick person. he's rich, arrogant, good looking, all high and mighty.

ahh, the things i do to satisfy myself is beyond believe. :)


im looking forward to a lot of wonderful things ahead. Tohoshinki 4th live tour; The Secret Code, Rock'A'Trench and Ayumi Hamasaki. speaking of things to look forward to, Koda Kumi is having a one-day only live at National Yoyogi Kyogijo, Harajuku. hoping to catch that as well. im thinking of Johnny's too but ah, they're always sold out within seconds, its sad. i would love catching NEWS or Kat-tun or Arashi or all of them LIVE. it'll be epic. oh well, i'll try my luck against rabid japnese fangirls. hehe.



will be off to the embassy today. maybe the ticket is ready? i need to get my visa done and there are quite a lot of questions that i need to ask. my parents have been pestering me about them since i got the news about my flight which is, NEXT TWO WEEKS. oh hey! im leaving soon! im quite excited about it now.

i hope Japan has something great to offer me or im coming home. hehe. just kidding. i'll be staying firm with this decision. no one can take me down now, im gonna slap you if you try. im gonna fight you till you have a good enough reason to keep me in Brunei. boo!