he once said, i dont treat you like this because i think youre going to break. i treat you like this because im afraid im going to break if i see you hurt again.

its my favourite line from something i read last year and its going to be my favourite for many more years. its undeniably beautiful when he said it, free from all ambiguity.


sometimes its times like these that one would start to realise how much of life have been wasted in nonsensical activities with total strangers than family. i think so too; that ive spent too much time out rather than home. or maybe thats just my mediocre way of thinking of things. -shrugs-

4 days and counting. saw the paper yesterday and there was i, standing next to the ambassador after the luncheon at his residence. :)

last night i was thinking of getting the new 17-inch Macbook Pro. its sleek, thin, runs on a built-in battery and the high performance is really tempting. im very much fond of it but ive already got a Macbook Pro and was thinking for a split second to trade it in for a new one but this heart wont let it. i have a feeling i might purchase the new MBP during christmas or the red sony vaio or both (only apply next year). ive already thought of how much i would have to save each month.

two new laptops on top of so many other things. i have a gut feeling that i'll be as poor as to eat grass for the next year what with my plans of... maybe i shouldnt mention it yet cos i might jinx it. im not superstitious, btw.

will be off to the embassy again today to collect my plane tickets! im excited.

ja ne!