you’re my melody,
i’ll perform you on & on,
you’re my song, my life’s soundtrack,
i love you, for you brighten up my life,
i’ll continue to sing you, you’re my song

one song, repeated one too many times for me to count each day, every day.



pressure is building up. im trying my hardest not to fall. somehow, even smiling takes great effort and getting out of bed every morning knowing this is my last chance seems to make my stomach turn. i live every day trying not to hurl for being extremely nervous. but there'll be a time, when this all will be worth it. every single second of this dreadful, exhausting and painful days. just one more month, i keep telling myself. i dont know how much further i can take. i dont know where im taking myself. i just dont know.