WHAT WAS I THINKING DREAMING OF LISA UNNI WITH KOYAMA AND TEGOSHI? D:

that aside,

i feel unmotivated. for real now. i dont have the drive to do anything. nothing interests me. when i say nothing, i mean NOTHING. i just feel like crawling into my bed and mourn for being so useless and hopeless. or i might try flushing myself down the toilet. this or that.


I SHOULD REALLY START WORKING ON MY GRADES.
PLEASE.


i feel like im destroying myself into tiny shredded pieces. pieces smaller than minced beef. thats how small i feel now.