Anna: HAHA. Yeah. Okay. Hehe. I kinda forgot where you were. But yeah. We'll hang when I get back from my holiday. WOOT. In my new ride baby. *eyebrows*
Izul: Yeah man. I'm soooo lazy too. HAHAH. Sometimes too lazy to even lift a finger. Isn't that absurd? HAHAH. Yeah. I will umm give you a ring? Heee. I'll post something on your blog with the infos of when I'm going and all that. We be having fun. :D
That long long long bath was really relieving. And relaxing. :)
I have been surviving well without the daily dosage of the M. Although the side effects is kinda obvious. But I'm trying hard to live without it. No wonder it's was had for those heavy smokers to quit smoking. I understand now. It's part of your life so you take it. If it isn't then you would be pretty sure of refusing it. So now I'm okay. Barely surviving each day. But yeah. I just cant wait to get the day over and start a brand new day fresh and safe. Nothing is going to stop me now. I'm gonna be a brand new person. No wait, I'm gonna be the old me. The old me that I missed so much. Carefree and independent. God, just by the sound of it already makes me feel so good.
So, I skipped school today just to take a quick trip down to memory lane. St. Margaret's. Ohgod, how much I missed the closed and small environment. Oh and safe too. Safe enough for me to call it my second home. Met with my old teachers. I so miss miss miss them! I feel loved there. The place where I grew up. Where I learned new things. And where I tried my best to start standing on my own two feet. That was a success. Only until I find myself being in love with the small blue always-makes-me-happy. Yeah. That was also the school where I learned and get my first puff. Yes. aku samseng kaliah dulu. Sigup macam sitaie. Woo. Bida.
Curiosity. But yeah. Whatever that don't kill you, makes you stronger. Lionel thought me that. Well, I already knew that actually. But now, I'll live by it. I'll abide it. And make it as a promise to myself until I get what I actually want. And I want to improve myself to the very maximum. And... I think that's about it. Maybe? Oh yeah! Be anorexic. Lol. I hope that can happen. I'm pretty obsessive right now about my weight, my height and everything. It's ridiculous. And yeah, I need to be stronger. I dont wanna cry over stupid little things anymore.
So yeah. I saw si Azim play the drums. Ohgoodnees that boy looks even hotter than when I left. I like. He looks good too playing the drums. And when he smiled... my heart just gave in. *drools* But he's like a year younger? My sister's age only a few months older than her. He's supposed to be in my batch. I dont know. Heh. Kalau ya sama kami wah, woot! Banyak peminatnya ni di SMSA. Huhuhu.
Anyways. Fey texted me. Fey is Farhan's cousin. She said that si Joe got into an accident and died on the spot. Because he was drunk. Yes. I cried because I knew Joe. He lives with his mother now in Holland after his parents split. Heh. Joe, you know I love you dearly. Please be in peace. You'll always have a place somewhere in what is left of my heart.
Lionel's birthday tomorrow. What to do? Hmm. Get drunk? Or have a huge party and get drunk and have strippers? Hehehe.
Gah. I cried so much these few days. Sudah lah. Later people.
I smell nice. ♥
Izul: Yeah man. I'm soooo lazy too. HAHAH. Sometimes too lazy to even lift a finger. Isn't that absurd? HAHAH. Yeah. I will umm give you a ring? Heee. I'll post something on your blog with the infos of when I'm going and all that. We be having fun. :D
That long long long bath was really relieving. And relaxing. :)
I have been surviving well without the daily dosage of the M. Although the side effects is kinda obvious. But I'm trying hard to live without it. No wonder it's was had for those heavy smokers to quit smoking. I understand now. It's part of your life so you take it. If it isn't then you would be pretty sure of refusing it. So now I'm okay. Barely surviving each day. But yeah. I just cant wait to get the day over and start a brand new day fresh and safe. Nothing is going to stop me now. I'm gonna be a brand new person. No wait, I'm gonna be the old me. The old me that I missed so much. Carefree and independent. God, just by the sound of it already makes me feel so good.
So, I skipped school today just to take a quick trip down to memory lane. St. Margaret's. Ohgod, how much I missed the closed and small environment. Oh and safe too. Safe enough for me to call it my second home. Met with my old teachers. I so miss miss miss them! I feel loved there. The place where I grew up. Where I learned new things. And where I tried my best to start standing on my own two feet. That was a success. Only until I find myself being in love with the small blue always-makes-me-happy. Yeah. That was also the school where I learned and get my first puff. Yes. aku samseng kaliah dulu. Sigup macam sitaie. Woo. Bida.
Curiosity. But yeah. Whatever that don't kill you, makes you stronger. Lionel thought me that. Well, I already knew that actually. But now, I'll live by it. I'll abide it. And make it as a promise to myself until I get what I actually want. And I want to improve myself to the very maximum. And... I think that's about it. Maybe? Oh yeah! Be anorexic. Lol. I hope that can happen. I'm pretty obsessive right now about my weight, my height and everything. It's ridiculous. And yeah, I need to be stronger. I dont wanna cry over stupid little things anymore.
So yeah. I saw si Azim play the drums. Ohgoodnees that boy looks even hotter than when I left. I like. He looks good too playing the drums. And when he smiled... my heart just gave in. *drools* But he's like a year younger? My sister's age only a few months older than her. He's supposed to be in my batch. I dont know. Heh. Kalau ya sama kami wah, woot! Banyak peminatnya ni di SMSA. Huhuhu.
Anyways. Fey texted me. Fey is Farhan's cousin. She said that si Joe got into an accident and died on the spot. Because he was drunk. Yes. I cried because I knew Joe. He lives with his mother now in Holland after his parents split. Heh. Joe, you know I love you dearly. Please be in peace. You'll always have a place somewhere in what is left of my heart.
Lionel's birthday tomorrow. What to do? Hmm. Get drunk? Or have a huge party and get drunk and have strippers? Hehehe.
Gah. I cried so much these few days. Sudah lah. Later people.
I smell nice. ♥
